2018 – A Sea of Troubles (PART I)

Looking back on 2018, it has been an amazing year for me. No less, but probably more.

As the year is wrapping up, each day I find time to reflect and I am now gaining full awareness of how abundant God’s mercies have been, not just for me, but for my family and friends as well. Gracefully, He wrapped up one phase of my life in a way I would never have imagined it and ushered me safely into the next one. I could be short for words, but I refuse to be because I must share this with you (:

In late July of this year, I graduated from secondary school, all to His glory. I didn’t just graduate but my results were so beautiful (beyond what I had imagined!!) January this year, I received my Cambridge GCE O’Levels result, 5 A*s and 1A. I can’t go into details of how I felt at the time, but damn did God surprise me. In March/April, I took the JAMB and I had a score of 329 out of 400, which was the second best result in my school this year. In July, God crowned it all with a beautiful WAEC result of 7 A1s and 2 B2s. It can only be him. I graduated as the 4th best graduating science student of my school. Are you seeing how amazing God is?? He beat my wildest imaginations and came through with these. Deep down, I even still can’t believe it.

In the first paragraph, when I said 2018 has been an amazing year, I hope you didn’t think there were absolutely no struggles, because if you did, I’m sorry to burst your bubble.

After obtaining all the fantastic results, you wouldn’t believe your home girl didn’t know WHAT SHE WANTED TO BECOME in life. I was LOST completely. Yeah secondary school was a wrap. But okay what next?? And the slightest answer to this question is what I didn’t have. I was searching the deepest I could but man was I lost. I didn’t know what uni I was even going to, applying for scholarships here and there. Some of my friends were already starting school, your girl didn’t even know what she wanted to become – like absolutely no vision for the future. Frustration and anxiety set in, I was loosing it.

Imagine being this confused and not having a single sense of guidance from your parents. My parents have been divorced for about 8 years, but each passing year, the problems and wounds always seem to multiply and deepen. And 2018 couldn’t be left out of the party. In my opinion, 2018 threw the biggest party, I’m sure all the other years were as shocked as I was but definitely not being hit with the same amount of pain.

I graduated from secondary school and all hell broke loose. My parents couldn’t take a single decision over my future. I’m not saying they should have dictated for me to do with my life, obviously not lol. But you know when you’re lost and you just need your parents to have your back, yeah that. My mother wanted me to do this and then my dad wanted me to do the exact opposite. It was like tug of war, both of them tugging at me from opposite ends. Both sides may fall to the ground and can always get up and recover from the impact, but the wear and tear on the rope is never reversed. And as the rope, at a time the pressure had gotten so much, I almost snapped into two but for God’s grace that stepped in right on time.

 

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14 Comments Add yours

  1. jamesudotong says:

    ๐Ÿ˜ข 2018 was really a sea of trouble and blessings for you. But all things work together for good to them that love God, to them that are called according to his purpose ๐Ÿ˜‡. So look on the bright side of the year!! Love your blog by the way ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜. Keep it up.

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    1. Daniella Ntuen says:

      Thank you so much. This means a lot to me! God does really work things out for the good of those who love Him. Stay woke for part two!!

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  2. Chigozie says:

    It’s nice though like very very touching too

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    1. Daniella Ntuen says:

      Thank you so much. Thanks for having a read too!!

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  3. Mkpouto ๐Ÿ’› says:

    God is literally always there to make things better ๐Ÿคง๐Ÿ’•..thanks for sharing Daniex…I’m your number one fan btw๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚(this hurt to admit)๐Ÿ˜‚

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    1. Daniella Ntuen says:

      Aww thank you babe for having my back always. I’m glad you like it. #Numberonefan (;

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  4. Izzithegreatestthereis๐Ÿ˜Ž๐Ÿ˜Ž๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ’ฏ๐Ÿ’ฏ๐Ÿ˜Ž๐Ÿ”ฅโ—๏ธ says:

    Na God

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    1. Daniella Ntuen says:

      Yes indeed!!

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  5. Janet Reuben says:

    The moment you let God in control, boundless miracles over flow. You have an awesome God. I love your blog.๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜.

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    1. Daniella Ntuen says:

      Indeed we serve an awesome God. Thank you so much Janet, I really appreciate your thoughts and encouraging words. Stay blessed!!

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  6. Praiseee says:

    This is an amazing blog…keep it up….ill follow you all the way…much love girl๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’˜

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    1. Daniella Ntuen says:

      Thank you so much Praise!! This means a lot to me.

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  7. mcfranie says:

    Its so inspiring…I love your blog๐Ÿ˜ .keep riding girl๐Ÿ‘

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    1. Daniella Ntuen says:

      Thank you so much ๐Ÿ˜Š I really appreciate this

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