Looking back on 2018, it has been an amazing year for me. No less, but probably more.
As the year is wrapping up, each day I find time to reflect and I am now gaining full awareness of how abundant God’s mercies have been, not just for me, but for my family and friends as well. Gracefully, He wrapped up one phase of my life in a way I would never have imagined it and ushered me safely into the next one. I could be short for words, but I refuse to be because I must share this with you (:
In late July of this year, I graduated from secondary school, all to His glory. I didn’t just graduate but my results were so beautiful (beyond what I had imagined!!) January this year, I received my Cambridge GCE O’Levels result, 5 A*s and 1A. I can’t go into details of how I felt at the time, but damn did God surprise me. In March/April, I took the JAMB and I had a score of 329 out of 400, which was the second best result in my school this year. In July, God crowned it all with a beautiful WAEC result of 7 A1s and 2 B2s. It can only be him. I graduated as the 4th best graduating science student of my school. Are you seeing how amazing God is?? He beat my wildest imaginations and came through with these. Deep down, I even still can’t believe it.
In the first paragraph, when I said 2018 has been an amazing year, I hope you didn’t think there were absolutely no struggles, because if you did, I’m sorry to burst your bubble.
After obtaining all the fantastic results, you wouldn’t believe your home girl didn’t know WHAT SHE WANTED TO BECOME in life. I was LOST completely. Yeah secondary school was a wrap. But okay what next?? And the slightest answer to this question is what I didn’t have. I was searching the deepest I could but man was I lost. I didn’t know what uni I was even going to, applying for scholarships here and there. Some of my friends were already starting school, your girl didn’t even know what she wanted to become – like absolutely no vision for the future. Frustration and anxiety set in, I was loosing it.
Imagine being this confused and not having a single sense of guidance from your parents. My parents have been divorced for about 8 years, but each passing year, the problems and wounds always seem to multiply and deepen. And 2018 couldn’t be left out of the party. In my opinion, 2018 threw the biggest party, I’m sure all the other years were as shocked as I was but definitely not being hit with the same amount of pain.
I graduated from secondary school and all hell broke loose. My parents couldn’t take a single decision over my future. I’m not saying they should have dictated for me to do with my life, obviously not lol. But you know when you’re lost and you just need your parents to have your back, yeah that. My mother wanted me to do this and then my dad wanted me to do the exact opposite. It was like tug of war, both of them tugging at me from opposite ends. Both sides may fall to the ground and can always get up and recover from the impact, but the wear and tear on the rope is never reversed. And as the rope, at a time the pressure had gotten so much, I almost snapped into two but for God’s grace that stepped in right on time.